Today we spent much of the day preparing for our little girl’s arrival. Washing blankets, going through my son’s old clothes… I came across my son’s first pacifier…and the outfit we bought for his dedication…and the overalls my husband wore as a baby (given to us by my mother-in-law). It was a day filled with mixed emotions. My son is almost 2 1/2. How did the time go by so fast? He was just learning how to walk…and talk…now he is this little boy who wakes up singing and has full conversations with us.
I keep looking at the little baby tracker on my sidebar…anxiously awaiting the day she is to be born.
Soon I’ll be a mom to two precious children.
As I go through my son’s stuff, I can’t help thinking about whether or not our little girl is the last child my husband and I will have. Part of me feels like our little girl completes our family of four. One boy, one girl…all we need is a dog. But as my husband and I were going through my son’s old clothes, I kept hesitating… Something about this does not feel final. I don’t know if I’m ready to close this chapter in our lives yet.
Something as simple as giving away my son’s old clothes has become so much more. It opened up a discussion that my husband and I can’t finish. It’s a discussion without a resolution…at least not yet.
So…we compromised. My cousin just had a baby boy and she could really use some clothes. It’s going to feel like Christmas for her when we see her this week. However, I did save some outfits that have special meaning…some of my son’s most adorable clothes…clothes I personally picked out for him…and that pacifier? You can guess what I did with that…My husband says one day, I’ll look at it, wondering why I kept it. For now, it reminds me of that day, almost 2 1/2 years ago when I looked into those deep brown eyes and fell in love.
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julie cutshaw says
the best of blessing on her arrival for you all. Wait until they are 28 years old and you have your grandchildren then you’ll still feel the same as though it was just yesterday with so many memorys to cherrish. Through the years I did the same and gave away her clothes and now only have her little pink t-shirt the hospital gave her and some booties which i’m glad to have to take me back in time if only for a moment. You know your little girl will someday soon be playing with baby dolls so clothes can be used for that too. You could buy a boy doll for your son and keep his outgrown clothes for them to wear and play with that way you still get to keep them and be enjoyed by both, you and your little boy. God Bless & Congratulations.
Ingrid says
Oh my goodness! It’s almost that time for you. You got me thinking back to my two girls who are 2 years 11 months apart in age. This is going to be such a fun time for the whole family as your son bonds with his new sister. Best wishes to you and your family and have a very Happy Thanksgiving.
andrea mcmann says
Oh my gosh! When I first saw this post, I thought you’d had the baby early!! Thankfully, I took the time to read it! Sheesh!!
I have the same dilemma as you do, and still haven’t decided if I’ll have more babies, even though my “baby” will be four in two days! I guess time will tell…
Nancy M. says
I understand! There are some things that are just so hard to let go of! I have kept a few of my son’s infant clothes and things, they’re just so precious! I always went back and forth on having more kids, but in the end decided not to, although I still question that decision sometimes.
Lauralee Hensley says
Nostalgia is hitting me hard lately too. I’ve been organizing albums and remarking to my husband how much our son looked exactly like my husband’s boyhood photo’s. It’s fun to look back, but it’s fun to look forward too, so here’s looking forward to your glorious day when you hold your baby girl in your arms for the first time.
Shannon (The Mommy-Files) says
Oh my gosh girl! You had me at Pacifier! I loved this post! You never know 🙂
I love ya girl! Hugs!!!
Lorie Shewbridge says
Oh, Caryn, you have me in tears since my older son just left, I am SO nostalgic of when he was a baby. When did he become a man old enough to go to war? Keep that stuff as LONG as you want!! It is good for you and you never know, you may have a tom-boy on your hands! 🙂
Please take care of yourself, and DO NOT overdo it this season, please let others help you while you have company. You and the baby’s health are the MOST important thing this year, not weather the food tastes best.
Love and hugs to you all!!
Stephanie says
The right decision will become clear to you eventually. If you would have asked me during my pregnancy with baby #2 if we were done, I would have said, “probably.” Now, however, my husband and I both are pretty certain that we both want at least one more. It’s a funny thing…